Yesterday, the siren

I have had a troubled day, but two songs have kept me going. I have listened to them over and over. They have made me cry and made me smile. I'm posting them both for you. They are by Stavesacre.
Acquiesce
even now your eyes are courting sleep
i'll stay by your side as i have always been
sleep tonight, may your dreams reveal my love for you
beyond what i must do, do you know my plans for you?
to separate myself from where my treasure lies
then naked in this cold and lonely unforgiving life.
be stripped away of all delusions of the man i'd like to be
at the moment.i am broken parts
sure of only weaknesses
with nothing left to show
no illusions left to hide behind.
burning clean has been both agony and absolute release
can i hope to pass this test,
is my destiny the wilderness?
the hardest part of letting go,
is trusting you with everything
in laying bare my soul
is truly seeing who I really am
Father what is man that You are mindful of him
can i pass this test?
is my destiny this wilderness?
to stand alone
against a life of wretchedness.
impossible to hope
and so i plead Your graciousness
show me your glory
may my life reflect your presence
and never again find myself in anything less.

The Two Heavens
a careless leper
too comfortable
in his own world
to notice the the older wounds
have new infections
with new intentions
darkness settled in behind me
tapped me on the shoulder
singing shivers to my spine
from the corners of my mind
"i've been wanting to remind you
of everything you've left behind
and wouldn't you, shouldn't you
remember me
should you forget, i haven't yet
remember when we...
almost stepped right off
between the two heavens
one aboveand one below
one last flight
all stars and city lights
one last goodbye
one last goodbye..."
she's there when i'm alone
and she always seems to know
the stories that'll take me
back to where my comforts sleep
a caress with velvet paws
that hide her sharpened claws
along the walls that time has built
highsearching for the blemishes
and i know she's breathing murder
that it is folly to endure her
but there is sweetness in her whisper
"when you've had enough, i'll be waiting
wouldn't you, shouldn't youremember me
should you forget, i haven't yet
you know that we can always
step right offbetween the two heavens
one above
and one below
one last flightall stars and city lights
one last goodbye
one last goodbye...
"i've never known a life without her
at every turn she's there
her comfort i despise
but there's a coward in me, fearing any
changes for the trial
hopeless is a hideawayf
amiliar escape
i've never known a life without her
at every turn, she's there
yesterday's a siren
singing memories so inviting
sometimes reaping takes a lifetime
but i'm pushing on, with living life
renewed in mind, i say goodbye
to yesterday, the siren
singing memories so inviting
sometimes reaping takes a lifetime
but i'm pushing on,
with the mind of Christ
i say goodbye
and watch her die